Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Introduction

How should I start this little corner of madness....processing, thinking, and ah here we go. I could introduce myself but that would be pointless because either you know me, wish you knew me, or hate me because you knew me.
I'm a nice person until you push that big red bitch button one too many times and then I will rip out your throat. A lot of people find me abrasive, cynical, negative, and oh the list goes on. Am I cynical? Probably, am I abrasive, well if the truth hurts then so be it.
I never used to be such a mean bitch per say, I was the fat kid tormented in school, poor and weird. Then I dunno I got tired of all the crap and sort of found myself. While I may not do some things that would consider me a "good" role model. I believe I am a hell of a lot better as a role model than some women and men.
Well I guess I should let the secret out about some things, no I was not pregnant when I was sick nor was I ever pregnant. No I have not gotten an abortion at any part of my life. And as for my ex, he was a mistake and not a pleasant one.
I have people issues because I have kept getting burned in the past and due to my own personal defense mechanisms. The people that I have burned were burned for a reason and the ones I have ditched I am better without.
Most won't know this but I openly admit I had a drug problem, my ex ended up getting me hooked and I was weak I could not resist him or the damn drugs. It screwed up my life but lucky for me I came to my senses and cleaned up.
What made me clean up my act? The simple fact that after snorting heroin I was passed out in a stupor, I woke up to find him on top of me trying to have sex with me. Luckily I woke up because if I didn't he would have raped me and I would not have known it.
Think that would have been enough to get me to lose him? Nope but it did get me thinking about leaving him, the straw that broke the camel's back was when I caught him having sex with a crackwhore while I was out working to support his damn crack habit.
This is why I am going to write a weekly column called Throwing Down the Little White Gloves. I want women to know they are not alone and they don't have to fall into the stereotypical role that women are subjected to.
Men as well don't need to fall into the stereotypes that society requires of them. I will be covering anything and everything. It is about empowering an individual and finding yourself in the process.
If it is considered self help then so be it.